Week 1 COMPLETE

Weigh In: 272.4 Loss: 4.4 BMI: 41.4

What a week! I exercised everyday with all my stickers up on the piggy calendar. A day just looks so sad without one of those colorful smiley faces up on it. HaHaHa Pretty proud of the weigh in. I ate out 3 times this week: OKelly's, Italian, and Bojangles. I chose the best things my body and mind could agree on and stayed tough. This week just shows i can still enjoy life and little treats as long as I focus and continue with my exercise. I even had a cupcake at work one day. It was sooooo worth the sugar treat. HA I even got all my devotionals done this week. In the past i haven't been able to find that happy balance of making time for exercise and devotions. I was so concerned about my weight i would let bible reading and studying be pushed to the back burner. I would get to it when i was really down and thought i needed it. After this week, i know i can't continue to live that way. God is not a special tool i can pull out only when i need him. He is always there and i need to praise him during the good and bad. Things i learned this week:

1: Making time for what i seek first...God
2. To stop worrying, God will supply all my needs.
3. Learning to balance my time and glorify him in everything i do.
4. Put my past behind me, carry my cross, and follow Him.
5. Let my light shine no matter where i am or who i am around.
6. Reading verses and praying them in my own words....never heard of this until now. It was a very powerful tool to take God's word and read them to him in prayer. It really makes you think what the verse is really saying and understanding it.
7. Forgive my enemies, people i may have some against or have hurt me. If i can't forgive them, Jesus won't forgive me and my short comings.

It was a powerful week. I was able to 100% forgive Lance and the hurt he caused me the other week. It still hurts if i think about it to much, but i don't have this hatred or the need for revenge like i had then. It is what it is and i can not dwell on it. That was probably the hardest prayer i have prayed in quite sometime. Letting go, forgiving, and sending up a prayer for him. At the same time though, it was so free! I felt like this weight was lifted off my chest and i could finally breath! I want to remember this feeling and use it to fuel me in the future. I know life is not perfect and there will be more people to hurt me or disappoint me. I want to continue down this path to not let them bring me down and for me to not hold hate in my heart. It only tears me down and holds me back. I want to keep praying and learning everyday to seek God first and learn to truly love and care for those around me. I want to let my light shine and bring as many people as i can to his side.

Today starts week #2 and I'm excited to OWN IT! I have another week in my devotional book that will be focusing on prayer. I never thought much about studying the bible for the way to pray, but there is alot more to it then i thought. Already on day one it has me thinking. Can't wait to see what the rest of the week brings.

For a side note...my poker chips came in and they are more amazing then i thought. Can not wait to have that first one in my hands! Ehhhh! Will be bringing one on the cruise to keep near to remind me of what I'm fighting for. :D