Step 1: Last Saturday I took my last birth control pill. After some research and talking to people that have known me on and off it...I think it may have something to do with my crazy moods throughout the years and possibly even why my nerves and temper are always on edge. I wanted to wait till I spoke with a doctor, but I have got impatient and want to take whatever steps i can on my own to get better. Me and the hubs are not that active right now, heck zero active...sooooo, there is no fear of a maybe baby. The body wants it, but the mind is like, uck! NO! I just think God everyday for my hubba. He is being so understanding, patient, and supportive right now. I couldn't ask for a better man.
Step 2: Yesterday I finally got an appointment set up with my new Dr's office. It has been over 3 weeks and they still do not have my paper work from my last Dr's office. Thankfully I had an amazing lady answer the phone. I was like, I have been patient as long as i can, but my depression, anxiety, and swelling ain't getting any better and I'm at the end of my rope. I just want an appointment and start on the help i need and want desperately. I can tell them about my past history better then any paper can, i can tell ya that much! So yeah! Next Monday at 8:30 I head in. I have to see a male doctor which to most people doesn't sound like anything off, but i have never seen one. I don't feel comfortable with one and I don't think they will understand my problems as well as a female. I don't know?! I don't want to wait any longer for my lady doc to get back, so, I'm just going to suck it up and get this first appointment done! It's just the meet and greet with a side of blood work soooo i should be ok. Hopefully, he is a rocking doctor and proves all my fears wrong. :crossing fingers:
Step 3: Survive the weekend and starting this Monday I am getting back into the swing of healthy living. I want to make the weigh in at the Doctor's office and my weigh in at the end of the month to be as good as i can make it. I just pray i do not see 300 or above. The highest i have weighed myself this year was 297.6. 299.9 or below is what i need to see. I mean...whatever it shows on 12/30 is what it will be....I just don't want to say I weighed 300 pounds. :Sigh: I have slacked enough for the last 2 months...time to get ready for the beast mode of 2014! ;D
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